Review

• You are color-blind. Everything appears grey to you.
• Line meeeeee.
• Deo ra.
• No matter what color dress you wear, it is always matching-matching with your brother's. *Rolling-my-eyes*
• You will get doubts like "When is new year celebrated? December 1st or January 1st?"
• Someone really starts doubting your brains. Rather big body with little brains.
• Your singing makes people think of suicide.
• You attend a wedding and say "many many happy returns of the day" to the couple.
• You have the most weird wardrobe one has ever seen. Never mind everything seems fine to you always.
• You have to disappear at the last minute and appear in the nick of time.
• You are an expert in the subject of "Driving people mad"
• You are deaf.
• Your PC is in excellent health.
• People using your PC feel like banging their head on it.
• You plan everything in advance.
• You can remember spellings very well especially if they are web addresses.
• You are lazy. The only time you open your mouth is when you eat.
• The most frequently said things "What's for the breakfast? When shall we have lunch? Is it dinner time?"
• Your favourite line "Shall we eat? I will eat."
• You will go and rot yourself in the worst hostel for no good reason. You will be ready to leave that place everyday for a month.
• ><>
• Ask "Where is the third left?"
• Are you a true friend? If you are a true friend then....
• The "OK" formula.
• You can draw a straight line. Yes you can draw it. Atleast I think so.
• Where is your ship?
• You know you should have been in politics. Let us start a party!
• You are pro at spellings.
• Your writing is a conundrum to the cryptography department.
• You are alwaaaayss yaaaactiveeee.
• Come with your weapon and enerzeeeee tomorrow.
• Each and every file in your PC should be on your desktop, including short cuts for all the drives.
• Houses make you feel like it's raining. They look like are climate to you. Especially the lavender ones.
• You have a very odd way to dress your hair.

Reticent me.

Cant explain in detail. Seriously, one of these days I'm going to be demented and the people in white clothes are going to arrive to take me. Thank god, college reopens tomorrow. 30 days of nothing is pure torture. The idea of seeing my rainbow tomorrow is exhilarating. Let me tell you what I've done all these days. A book, a system, a chair and a bed. Hope you get the idea. When ever our great Institute of education is on, I feel like idling at home and whenever it is off I feel like attending the classes. Sounds capricious. Nothing ever happens in my dull and boring life. Nothing can bring a spark of interest or excitement in me. I've already classified myself as reticent. My mind simply refuses to interact with anyone. I dont want to see any new faces in my world. The best part of today is lilly and dolly are back. Hurray!!!
I just felt like talking. I guess I've prated to my heart's content. See you later blog.

When will tomorrow start without me?

Don't ask me about that title I don't know what it means. Decipher what ever you want. It's been 20 long years. And it's like I've been sleeping all these years. What did I do all these years? Seriously nothing. I don't know what I'm going to do. Where am I heading to? Life sounds like a big question mark. I cant understand anyone and no one understands me. Its already depressing out here and to top it all my best friend is out of town. Lilly, I'm missing you like hell.
I cant express anything.
Everything is always entirely my fault.
I'm the one who hurts people. I spend half of my life apologizing for what I've done.
Oh no don't think about me, no one can ever hurt me. I'm an insensitive snob. Add impassive to that. I've got a heart made of stone.
Once again I repeat Everything is my fault. I'm the one who needs to be blamed.
I'm also selfish. I always think from my perspective. Who cares about others?
I have already mentioned that I'm an insensitive snob. So don't expect me to show courtesy.
I'm dumb. So its obvious that I act dumb.
Hey you know something.....I don't have any feelings or emotions.
My Emotional Quotient(EQ) is zero.
And I'm sorry I'm not perfect.
And I'm sorry I'm not the way you want.
And I'm sorry I couldn't even act the way you want.
Ok fine, I've described enough. I will add some more in future. Bye.

Does Anyone Care???

Understand the things I say Don’t turn away from me
Cause I spent half my life out there You wouldn’t disagree
D’you see me, d’you see Do you like me, do you like me standing there
D’you notice, d’you know Do you see me, do you see me
Does anyone care
Unhappiness, where’s when I was young
And we didn’t give a damn ’cause we were raised To see life as fun and take it if we can
My mother, my mother she hold me Did she hold me, when I was out there
My father, my father, he liked me Ol he liked me,
Does anyone care
Understand what I’ve become It wasn’t my design
And people everywhere think Something better than I am
But I miss you, I miss’cause I liked it, I liked it
When I was out there
D’you know this, d’you know You did not find me, you did not find me
Does anyone care Does any one care Does anyone care....

A Blissful Heart In my vivified life

Confounded.

winter's cityside crystal bits of snowflakes all around my head and in the wind.
I had no illusions that I'd ever find a glimpse of summer's heatwaves in your eyes.
Now it's history I see here's my comeback on the road again.
Things will happen while they can passing silhouettes of strange illuminated mannequins.

Suicide.

Guess what Mr.Vilasrao Dadoji Deshmukh, Chief Minister of Maharashtra, replied when journalists asked him about the death toll of farmers? He said that even though suicide is a legal offence, no farmer was apprehended on this charge. But nobody noticed the government's generosity. Great. Simply great. How could we have ever missed this Great-heartiness?

Suicide came from a Latin word suicidium meaning killing oneself. A person commits suicide when he depicts that death is more comfortable than life. It is not easy to kill oneself. It requires lot of valor. If the same mettle could be used in life to find solace, there won't be any suicides. There can be many causes for a suicide. Psychological, environmental, terrorism, extreme nationalism and Euthanasia . People say that best way to suicide is poisoning oneself. The best poisons are cyanide and endrine. Cyanide is hard to get. Often males attempt successful suicides while female methods are failure prone. Some people write a suicide note and some do not. Some people see suicide as a human right. ( The "right to die"). There are even suicide spots like the suicide bridge in London.

I wonder how death would be. What will it be like? What will people think just before their death? No one knows what happens after death.
I happened to see a website called suicide.org. I wonder to what extent it can help people.

You

I saw you for the first time in a small village. I know you since 2 decades. I came all this way without ever talking to you. You have given me memories to cherish both bright and dark.Your inception was bitter. May be that was too early to judge you. Except for a few twinkles you were total melancholy. The best part of you in those days was, you introduced me to this wonderful girl who became my best friend and will remain so forever.

I started relishing you several years later. You were at your best in my adolescence. I made friends for the first time who liked me for what I am. Honestly speaking they were another insane and weird lot like me. May be that's why we have developed a close bonding with each other. Together we had a blast in our school. You filled all those days with bright colors. If I were given a chance to live some moments again, I would choose those instants.

You were cheerful in one way but depressing in another during teenage. You made me stay in the same place so many years that I was craving for some change. But it never came. That was the cost I had to pay for my indolence. I'm the one to blame for that. So never mind. You know I always had a feeling that I was in the wrong place. But I couldn't tell you what I thought was right for me. I had no idea. When I discovered my interest , something which I would love to do, it was too late. You have already taken me in another direction. You kept me in a position which I could not renounce.

The bright side of you was that you started changing me at this point of time. And you were successful. People could hardly believe the change in me. I turned from stubborn and obdurate to pleasant and flexible. You made me a better human being. My old pals were quite surprised with my demeanor. They still find it hard to digest that I have changed a lot. But still people think that I'm one hell of an arrogant brat. They say that my face gives them that odd feeling. They judge me even before they know me. And like hell I care.

Did you know about the people I love? First, my mother. No one would ever love me like she does. Next, my friends. I'm proud of them. It is not easy to find friends who are almost like your alter-ego's, who support you, who help you without being selfish and love you for what you are. And I'm grateful to you for finding them. You know the last and the most beloved one.

You were like an oil painting on a canvas painted with every color. You have been gloomy and happy, harsh and gentle, weary and active. You have given me freedom, which people envy at times. There is ambiguity about how you would treat me in future. Sometimes I don't understand you. You seem like a zilch. But I'm ready to endure anything. I love changes and challenges. They make you more exciting.

YOU are my LIFE.

Humming.

Found myself today
Oh I found myself and ran away
Something pulled me back
The voice of reason I forgot I had
All I know is just you're not here to say
What you always used to say
But it's written in the sky tonight
So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark
I'll still believeSomeone's watching over me
Seen that ray of light
And it's shining on my destiny
Shining all the time
And I wont be afraid
To follow everywhere it's taking me
All I know is yesterday is gone
And right now I belongTook this moment to my dreams
So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me
It doesn't matter what people say
And it doesn't matter how long it takes
Believe in yourself and you'll fly high
And it only matters how true you are
Be true to yourself and follow your heart
So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
That I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong Even when it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
That someone's watching over
Someone's watching over
Someone's watching over me
Someone's watching over me...........


Well, I am what I am what I am could be who you are.
Is, your pain when you smile cause you've built a wall around your heart.
Do the thoughts in your head keep you up cause you feel alone?
And are you strong enough to be yourself?
If you cry would you hide would you want all the world to know?
And if you believed in love would you let it show are you in are you hip are you cool?
Do you try too hard or are you strong enough to be yourself?
If you can't, can't be your self what are you living for?
If you can't, can't be yourself you're gonna lose it all. You're going to find someday. You've got to run away you got to run, run, run away.

Happy

Day was simply excellent. Actually everyday since a week had been just great. I'm back to myself. My alma mater is boring as usual, but my humdrum is gone. Days are as exciting as ever. My friends are constantly getting involved in brawls. Man!! Do I love it? Its absolutely refreshing to have a new fight everyday. Its too funny and exciting. Hope this euphoria stays.
Anyways I'm back to work again. Reading learning and stuff. No more pointless staring. Nothing else to write. See you later blog.

Back

Back after a very long time. I had been on a roller coaster ride for the past few weeks. Did'nt even have time to breath or think about anything else. Exams were followed by our college tour which left me with a lot of memories to cherish. I thought I'd regret going there. But my friends made it a journey of joy and laughter. I never remembered rolling with laughter.....tears streaming down from my eyes.... like I did in the last few days.