Reticent me.

Cant explain in detail. Seriously, one of these days I'm going to be demented and the people in white clothes are going to arrive to take me. Thank god, college reopens tomorrow. 30 days of nothing is pure torture. The idea of seeing my rainbow tomorrow is exhilarating. Let me tell you what I've done all these days. A book, a system, a chair and a bed. Hope you get the idea. When ever our great Institute of education is on, I feel like idling at home and whenever it is off I feel like attending the classes. Sounds capricious. Nothing ever happens in my dull and boring life. Nothing can bring a spark of interest or excitement in me. I've already classified myself as reticent. My mind simply refuses to interact with anyone. I dont want to see any new faces in my world. The best part of today is lilly and dolly are back. Hurray!!!
I just felt like talking. I guess I've prated to my heart's content. See you later blog.

You

I saw you for the first time in a small village. I know you since 2 decades. I came all this way without ever talking to you. You have given me memories to cherish both bright and dark.Your inception was bitter. May be that was too early to judge you. Except for a few twinkles you were total melancholy. The best part of you in those days was, you introduced me to this wonderful girl who became my best friend and will remain so forever.

I started relishing you several years later. You were at your best in my adolescence. I made friends for the first time who liked me for what I am. Honestly speaking they were another insane and weird lot like me. May be that's why we have developed a close bonding with each other. Together we had a blast in our school. You filled all those days with bright colors. If I were given a chance to live some moments again, I would choose those instants.

You were cheerful in one way but depressing in another during teenage. You made me stay in the same place so many years that I was craving for some change. But it never came. That was the cost I had to pay for my indolence. I'm the one to blame for that. So never mind. You know I always had a feeling that I was in the wrong place. But I couldn't tell you what I thought was right for me. I had no idea. When I discovered my interest , something which I would love to do, it was too late. You have already taken me in another direction. You kept me in a position which I could not renounce.

The bright side of you was that you started changing me at this point of time. And you were successful. People could hardly believe the change in me. I turned from stubborn and obdurate to pleasant and flexible. You made me a better human being. My old pals were quite surprised with my demeanor. They still find it hard to digest that I have changed a lot. But still people think that I'm one hell of an arrogant brat. They say that my face gives them that odd feeling. They judge me even before they know me. And like hell I care.

Did you know about the people I love? First, my mother. No one would ever love me like she does. Next, my friends. I'm proud of them. It is not easy to find friends who are almost like your alter-ego's, who support you, who help you without being selfish and love you for what you are. And I'm grateful to you for finding them. You know the last and the most beloved one.

You were like an oil painting on a canvas painted with every color. You have been gloomy and happy, harsh and gentle, weary and active. You have given me freedom, which people envy at times. There is ambiguity about how you would treat me in future. Sometimes I don't understand you. You seem like a zilch. But I'm ready to endure anything. I love changes and challenges. They make you more exciting.

YOU are my LIFE.

Humming.

Found myself today
Oh I found myself and ran away
Something pulled me back
The voice of reason I forgot I had
All I know is just you're not here to say
What you always used to say
But it's written in the sky tonight
So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark
I'll still believeSomeone's watching over me
Seen that ray of light
And it's shining on my destiny
Shining all the time
And I wont be afraid
To follow everywhere it's taking me
All I know is yesterday is gone
And right now I belongTook this moment to my dreams
So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me
It doesn't matter what people say
And it doesn't matter how long it takes
Believe in yourself and you'll fly high
And it only matters how true you are
Be true to yourself and follow your heart
So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
That I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong Even when it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
That someone's watching over
Someone's watching over
Someone's watching over me
Someone's watching over me...........


Well, I am what I am what I am could be who you are.
Is, your pain when you smile cause you've built a wall around your heart.
Do the thoughts in your head keep you up cause you feel alone?
And are you strong enough to be yourself?
If you cry would you hide would you want all the world to know?
And if you believed in love would you let it show are you in are you hip are you cool?
Do you try too hard or are you strong enough to be yourself?
If you can't, can't be your self what are you living for?
If you can't, can't be yourself you're gonna lose it all. You're going to find someday. You've got to run away you got to run, run, run away.

Me being me. Applied only for me.

Be yourself. Have an attitude even if "others" think of it as arrogance.

Life is not a bed of roses. You have to sacrifice a part of your enjoyment and indolence in order to achieve and enjoy something. Learn from past, live in the present. Plan for the future. Ponder the consequences before you act. Don’t jump to conclusions. Be calm and unruffled on the surface but paddle with great vigor underneath.

Don’t pay any attention to "others". Their opinion or anything they do is least important. If others dominate or intimidate you, remember that you are "allowing" them to dominate and intimidate you. It’s your problem, not theirs. Don’t choose a path because everyone else is going in it. Act according to your interests and instincts. Set a goal that suits you and work to achieve it. Don’t take any one's opinion about anything. Always be the decision-maker. Be independent. Dependency is abject.

No more role models, biographies and auto-biographies. No talking about great souls and stuff. Just become one yourself. Imagining yourself in the place of some illustrious person is going to get you nowhere. Don’t take up a task because some eminent person has done it and achieved fame. Think whether it interests you or not. Never loose your individuality. Always appreciate the great ones. But no more"follow the footsteps" saga.

Everyone has their own philosophy. Success means different to different people. Think what "success" exactly means to you. And success is what you achieve with what you get. Never complain about anything. Complaining is the prime quality of losers. If you are talented enough you can create your own way towards success. Once you define success in your lexicon understand that you are solely responsible for your success. The same goes for failures. Never blame others for anything.

Always be yourself with everyone. No chameleon stunts. It’s better to be hated for what you are than to be loved for what you are not. Never shout in anger. Just be silent. Silence always has an effect on people. If you hate or can’t tolerate someone, just remember that nobody is perfect. If you can love yourself in spite of all your faults, how can you hate someone for their minor defects? Never work with intentions to hurt others. Just be down-to-earth and mind your own business. If others underestimate you, don’t bother to correct them. It’s better to be underestimated than to be overestimated. Patience is a virtue which most people lack these days and it will make you unique if you have the right amount.

Never hate or argue with someone because their opinions clash with yours. Everyone has their own opinion. Learn to respect others beliefs and ideas. Listen to them even if you feel that they are wrong. There is something called "freedom of speech and expression"(which is myth these days) remember?Most people don’t understand the meaning of "religion".

No religion has taught to shed blood and hate other religions. There is only one religion and it’s called "HUMANITY".