When will tomorrow start without me?

Don't ask me about that title I don't know what it means. Decipher what ever you want. It's been 20 long years. And it's like I've been sleeping all these years. What did I do all these years? Seriously nothing. I don't know what I'm going to do. Where am I heading to? Life sounds like a big question mark. I cant understand anyone and no one understands me. Its already depressing out here and to top it all my best friend is out of town. Lilly, I'm missing you like hell.
I cant express anything.
Everything is always entirely my fault.
I'm the one who hurts people. I spend half of my life apologizing for what I've done.
Oh no don't think about me, no one can ever hurt me. I'm an insensitive snob. Add impassive to that. I've got a heart made of stone.
Once again I repeat Everything is my fault. I'm the one who needs to be blamed.
I'm also selfish. I always think from my perspective. Who cares about others?
I have already mentioned that I'm an insensitive snob. So don't expect me to show courtesy.
I'm dumb. So its obvious that I act dumb.
Hey you know something.....I don't have any feelings or emotions.
My Emotional Quotient(EQ) is zero.
And I'm sorry I'm not perfect.
And I'm sorry I'm not the way you want.
And I'm sorry I couldn't even act the way you want.
Ok fine, I've described enough. I will add some more in future. Bye.

Does Anyone Care???

Understand the things I say Don’t turn away from me
Cause I spent half my life out there You wouldn’t disagree
D’you see me, d’you see Do you like me, do you like me standing there
D’you notice, d’you know Do you see me, do you see me
Does anyone care
Unhappiness, where’s when I was young
And we didn’t give a damn ’cause we were raised To see life as fun and take it if we can
My mother, my mother she hold me Did she hold me, when I was out there
My father, my father, he liked me Ol he liked me,
Does anyone care
Understand what I’ve become It wasn’t my design
And people everywhere think Something better than I am
But I miss you, I miss’cause I liked it, I liked it
When I was out there
D’you know this, d’you know You did not find me, you did not find me
Does anyone care Does any one care Does anyone care....

Wisdom??

Real knowledge is to the extent of one's ignorance.

Introspection

Of all the creatures that inhibit the earth, There is none other decrepit than humans.
We, Homo sapiens don't have the adaptability of insects. ( The first atomic test was detonated by US at Trinity site in July,1945. When the scientists went to inspect that site later , they found out that everything was destroyed except for ants and cockroaches, they were carrying on as though nothing had happened. ) We don't have extremely keen eye sight like eagles. We don't have the ability to produce ultrasonic sounds and spot objects in dark like bats. We don't have the excellence in detecting scents like dogs. We don't have the strategy of virus in destroying enemies. And we are the only species on this earth who are prone to back pain because of working on two legs.
Then how do we find ourselves in this position today? Because we have an unique ability, the ability to think, to communicate; for which our brain is responsible. That 12 pound mass on our shoulders is the reason for what we are today.
But yeah, I find our thinking more devastating than benignant. Science and technology is ameliorating, Environment and moral values are deteriorating. We have successfully made half of the plant and animal kingdom extinct and kept another half on the brink of extinction. We have enhanced natural calamities. Increased the earth's temperature. And what not?
We have created religion, whose definition is often misinterpreted by fools so that we can have never-ending altercations.
We forgot the ability to prioritize. I have seen a politician who tied ropes to the waists of children(8-9 year olds) so that they cant escape and made them do backbreaking works. There are people who never had any proper shelter. Poverty rate in India has been declining since independence. But still, 30% (approximately) of Indians are poor. Instead of pondering all these problems some people find going after religion very convenient. (The Ayodhya debate for instance). In some government hostel, girls were facing barbarous sexual harassment. But this is not at all anything important. What is important is, how the attire of a celebrity hurt the sensitive feelings of a certain community, what measures can be taken to avoid valentines day celebrations?
Don't get an idea that I'm a pessimist. No I'm not.
Some incidents simply leave me appalled. I would never be able to understand why people fight about religion. That's beyond me. I know sitting in front of a computer and typing all this is cozy. Eloquence is Easy. Action is difficult. Wish I could do something for my country. I'm not doing anything now. But I wont say that I'll do something someday. I wont make promises unless I've distinct ideas and plans. I knew this blog would be tentative. But couldn't help. Like I said time has all the answers.